Teaching on the Fly: a terrible idea or a blessing in disguise?
One of my mentors and dear friends once said "When people find out you are a creator in the arts you get asked to do "favors" in your community more times than you feel comfortable." This woman is a fantastic choreographer and one of my favorite women to dance with, and she does give of her talent on a regular basis. What she meant by her statement is that sometimes there are worthy causes to share your talents and sometimes there are times that just aren't worth your time and energy. (That sounded more snobby than I intend, I'm merely talking about times being worth the energy you put into them. My point is about good energy, not about being an elitist when it comes to your talents.)
In a previous post I talked about Smeagol Brain and how when I get over worked I tend to push away anything and everything and hide in my Smeagol cave. (My living room.) Well, when I am not experiencing symptoms of Smeagol Brain I am usually working on my stuff (Gettin' it done.) I am making goal boards, and checking things off lists, and watching inspiring Ted talks all to keep my fire going. BUT I still hesitate to agree to teaching on the fly. Why? Because of Nervous Camille. She comes and goes sometimes not really for any particular reason, other than I feel nervous to put myself out there. Sheesh between Smeagol Brain and Nervous Camille there are a lot of mental roadblocks to navigate around. (I'm sure I am not alone in this, we all have our blocks, don't we? So we all have to motivate each other, am I right? I digress.)
Well I am learning (slowly) how to navigate around the mental roadblocks and say yes to opportunities. I am trying to move past my blocks, meditate and ponder on opportunities given to me. There are times when I know that I do not have room in my schedule for the favor/opportunity asked of me and I know I need to say no. This is okay.
Most of the time however, there is room in my schedule I just need to ask myself if there is room in my mind, asking "Can I do this, and will it be worth my time?". This is when learning how to meditate and visualize come into play. In an ideal time frame I would have a couple of days to "sit with it" as my instructor would say. The time frame of my decision varies from situation to situation, but what I am learning is my "sitting with it" (no matter how long) is the important factor in my decisions.
My time to think, breath, visualize and feel what the situation will ask of me helps me to work past Nervous Camille, soothe Smeagol Brain and come to a healthy conclusion about the opportunity at hand. Sometimes I say no with no reason other than it didn't feel right. This is okay too. As long as Nervous Camille and Smeagol Brain aren't the ones making the decision, it is okay for me to say no. Other times I say yes hoping the opportunity will help me to learn and grow and often I am right.
Nobody but me can say whether my answers are right in each situation. (God can, and He will one day, but for now I have to listen to myself and when He speaks pay attention.)
What should we take from this? We should take that instincts can be honored when you take the time to understand them. We should take that sometimes our minds block us from opportunities to grow and progress. We should take that when you give yourself the room to process decisions in a way that works for you, you'll find that your decisions will feel more like your own not Smeagol's and not someone else's. Take the time (even if it is 5 minutes) and sit with your thoughts. Your yoga knowledge and your personal knowledge can help you navigate life on and off of the mat. Believe and honor yourself and shine your light.
I received my wonderful yoga training @ www.gobodhiyoga.com
Namaste'
-Camille