Hello Blog Readers! (mostly my mom)
Last time I posted I spoke about how I hadn't done the challenge for a few weeks and how I wanted to change things around and how I wanted to re-motivate myself. Well this is what I decided: I want to keep doing this. My husband said it was the happiest he had seen me in a while, and frankly I really want to learn how to roll with the punches.
So I will be doing my best check in every night and keep on trucking with the challenge. I realize now that being accountable is helpful for me to reach my goals. I just want to find a balance between being accountable and finding one more way to be hard on myself and feel guilty. So let's take this opportunity to learn that!
I will be contuning the challenge, but it will no longer be limited to 60 days, it will now be "see how long I can keep certain habits" type of challenge. I will still blog to talk about it, but the posts will no longer be list like, they will just be how I felt that day.
Here we go:
Today was alright. I went to the gym and did some good walking and a little strength training and I am surprised I followed through with that. I find myself having a hard time motivating myself to get ready for work, and then when I get there I am not in a good mental place, but I am working on ways to remedy that. I haven't done yoga in a couple weeks and now I am feeling anxious about starting it again. BUT I have a new mantra/ Self talk question "does this thought help me achieve my goals? IF so, then I want to redirect it." So here it is: I may be nervous about yoga, but nervousness and worrying about the past aren't going to help me prepare for my yoga teacher training, and they aren't going to help me be a better yoga teacher, and they aren't going to help me to be brave. I want to be brave and I want to reach my goals. Tomorrow I will do yoga.
I'm typing on the husband's computer and it is bedtime so I must finish here. I am going to keep trying. I have decided to. :)
Goodnight!
Monday, November 4, 2013
Monday, October 28, 2013
Hello Old Friend!
Hello interweb people!
As you can tell I took a hiatus from the blog for a bit. It started out innocent with me forgetting while I was out of town, and then turned into me being worried that I made a mistake, to me avoiding it for a bit.
Well I am back. I have decided that I want to keep on with this idea. I also have decided to head it in a different direction so that it can be less of a source of guilt for me and more of a source of peace. I will let you know the changes as soon as I have them panned out in my head, but I wanted to make an entry tonight and show myself that I can do things even if I don't have them fully figured out yet. :)
What I do want to say in this post is this:
1) I have been accepted to a Yoga teacher training program in January. I am so excited!
2) My counselor has recommended that I start taking anti-anxiety medication. I have decided to start by trying an herbal remedy to see if that works before I go to the pharmaceuticals. I started taking it last Saturday and I will keep you updated on that.
3) I did do things while I wasn't blogging, and surprisingly I liked being able to do them with out having to be accountable to someone about them (even if that someone is myself). This is why I am pondering some things for the blog/challenge that may make my process more calm.
4) I don't have to have an "important" reason for this number. Nor do I have to have a certain amount of numbers. This blog is for me and because it is for me, my thoughts don't have to be organized or have a point all the time. I could just have this entry tonight solely to feel myself doing it again.
5) Gratitude is huge. I'm a big fan of gratitude and positive thinking and I want to welcome them back into my life.
I just wanted to rejoin the blogging world and let myself know that I can do this however I want, and let you all know that I'll be here doing my thing again.
-Cami
As you can tell I took a hiatus from the blog for a bit. It started out innocent with me forgetting while I was out of town, and then turned into me being worried that I made a mistake, to me avoiding it for a bit.
Well I am back. I have decided that I want to keep on with this idea. I also have decided to head it in a different direction so that it can be less of a source of guilt for me and more of a source of peace. I will let you know the changes as soon as I have them panned out in my head, but I wanted to make an entry tonight and show myself that I can do things even if I don't have them fully figured out yet. :)
What I do want to say in this post is this:
1) I have been accepted to a Yoga teacher training program in January. I am so excited!
2) My counselor has recommended that I start taking anti-anxiety medication. I have decided to start by trying an herbal remedy to see if that works before I go to the pharmaceuticals. I started taking it last Saturday and I will keep you updated on that.
3) I did do things while I wasn't blogging, and surprisingly I liked being able to do them with out having to be accountable to someone about them (even if that someone is myself). This is why I am pondering some things for the blog/challenge that may make my process more calm.
4) I don't have to have an "important" reason for this number. Nor do I have to have a certain amount of numbers. This blog is for me and because it is for me, my thoughts don't have to be organized or have a point all the time. I could just have this entry tonight solely to feel myself doing it again.
5) Gratitude is huge. I'm a big fan of gratitude and positive thinking and I want to welcome them back into my life.
I just wanted to rejoin the blogging world and let myself know that I can do this however I want, and let you all know that I'll be here doing my thing again.
-Cami
Thursday, October 10, 2013
Day 17/18 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
This is for day 17 & 18
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Day 17:
Went okay.
I slept in but was still able to get ready for work and be on time for work
At work I worked on the plan for YWs that night
I did not eat enough meals yesterday, I felt hungry when I went to bed but I didn't want the food to keep me awake.
I read conference talks
I went to YWs
I kept to my elimination diet. (No corn, No dairy, No soy, No HFCS)
I went to bed on time.
(Sorry I am tired so yesterday is a bit foggy.)
Day 18:
Today went well. I woke up @ 7:30 and took Husband to work. (it is so much easier to get up when there is somewhere I have to be. When I don't have to be anywhere it is difficult to convince myself of that.)
I finished watching a TV show that is on Netflix that I have been using as an avoidance tool. My avoidance of the things that I want to do or that I feel would be good for me, is a behavior that won't magically go away because there are no more episodes of that show to watch, but at least I will have a couple of days before I move onto the next tool.
I went to counseling today.
I cleaned the whole apartment.
I packed for our trip this weekend.
I called and sorted out an issue with a bill.
I DID YOGA!!! (I just got done doing it actually, and this particular practice was great. HARD, but great. I felt so alive afterwards.)
I bathed today.
I did not read scriptures or watch a talk and honestly, I missed it.
I will wash my face and brush my teeth tonight.
How do you feel physically?
I feel great. : )
How do you feel mentally?
I also feel great mentally. I was having a hard time earlier, in fact I was not in a great place for most of the day. :( I feel much better now.
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel hopeful. I will admit that today I felt somewhat hopeless. My counselor recommended I find anxiety medication (which I'm okay with that suggestion) but I just felt frustrated all day afterwards. I was getting mad at myself for the things I haven't done this week and the anger was making me not want to do them today either. It's a weird cycle, but it happens often. It's like I am sticking it to myself by not doing things that are good for me. : / I also worry about the future because I get down on myself when I don't accomplish what I want to. I feel like if I can't accomplish what I want to in my days now how will I ever do the bigger things I want to? Like teach yoga, or start up a studio, or help people? After my bath and yoga and after my headache went away I felt better. It was helpful that my yoga practice was hard today because even though I stumbled I still felt like it was a worthwhile accomplishment and that helped me to ease up off myself.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
I like the challenge. I think what I have learned this week is that the spiritual stuff gives me help more than I realize and the physical stuff is pretty essential. I feel like if I could be more consistent with those things next week then the rest of the challenge will fall into place. I would love to not get in my own way of happiness. I'm working on that. : )
Goodnight!
Xoxo!
This is for day 17 & 18
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Day 17:
Went okay.
I slept in but was still able to get ready for work and be on time for work
At work I worked on the plan for YWs that night
I did not eat enough meals yesterday, I felt hungry when I went to bed but I didn't want the food to keep me awake.
I read conference talks
I went to YWs
I kept to my elimination diet. (No corn, No dairy, No soy, No HFCS)
I went to bed on time.
(Sorry I am tired so yesterday is a bit foggy.)
Day 18:
Today went well. I woke up @ 7:30 and took Husband to work. (it is so much easier to get up when there is somewhere I have to be. When I don't have to be anywhere it is difficult to convince myself of that.)
I finished watching a TV show that is on Netflix that I have been using as an avoidance tool. My avoidance of the things that I want to do or that I feel would be good for me, is a behavior that won't magically go away because there are no more episodes of that show to watch, but at least I will have a couple of days before I move onto the next tool.
I went to counseling today.
I cleaned the whole apartment.
I packed for our trip this weekend.
I called and sorted out an issue with a bill.
I DID YOGA!!! (I just got done doing it actually, and this particular practice was great. HARD, but great. I felt so alive afterwards.)
I bathed today.
I did not read scriptures or watch a talk and honestly, I missed it.
I will wash my face and brush my teeth tonight.
How do you feel physically?
I feel great. : )
How do you feel mentally?
I also feel great mentally. I was having a hard time earlier, in fact I was not in a great place for most of the day. :( I feel much better now.
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel hopeful. I will admit that today I felt somewhat hopeless. My counselor recommended I find anxiety medication (which I'm okay with that suggestion) but I just felt frustrated all day afterwards. I was getting mad at myself for the things I haven't done this week and the anger was making me not want to do them today either. It's a weird cycle, but it happens often. It's like I am sticking it to myself by not doing things that are good for me. : / I also worry about the future because I get down on myself when I don't accomplish what I want to. I feel like if I can't accomplish what I want to in my days now how will I ever do the bigger things I want to? Like teach yoga, or start up a studio, or help people? After my bath and yoga and after my headache went away I felt better. It was helpful that my yoga practice was hard today because even though I stumbled I still felt like it was a worthwhile accomplishment and that helped me to ease up off myself.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
I like the challenge. I think what I have learned this week is that the spiritual stuff gives me help more than I realize and the physical stuff is pretty essential. I feel like if I could be more consistent with those things next week then the rest of the challenge will fall into place. I would love to not get in my own way of happiness. I'm working on that. : )
Goodnight!
Xoxo!
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Day 16 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is Day 16!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today good. I will admit that there were some stumbling blocks today and some frustration, but I have to recognize that today was actually good.
I slept in till 10, which was a stumbling block, but I tried to press forward.
I watched a General Conference Talk and I said a prayer this morning
I did my laundry and the dishes
I took a test for one of my classes. (It actually took longer than I thought it would.) I'm glad I got that done today because it's due Friday and Friday we are going out of town.
I kept an eating log and I did okay on the elimination diet. (Update on that: I've decided to change it to no corn, no dairy, no soy. I already am gluten free, but these things are said to make auto-immune disorder symptoms worse. So for now I'm talking those out. Which shouldn't be that hard since I've but somewhat doing it anyway.) There was corn in my vegetable mix today though. : /
I ate 3+ meals today.
How do you feel physically?
I feel tired. It is time for my sleep now.
How do you feel mentally?
I feel good now. I felt frustrated and anxious earlier, but after a talk with Husband I feel better.
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel okay. Kind of even-keel. This is probably the tiredness speaking.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
As mentioned before, I felt frustrated earlier today. I did what I was hoping to in the morning, (even after a slow wake up, which I let myself be frustrated about.) I also accomplished a big task today of taking my test. That is a big load off of this week's stresses. I just didn't do everything I wanted to today, not because of lack of time, but because it was hard to will myself to do some of it. I was venting to Husband and he had an epiphany. He said "You go to work when you are supposed to go to work. When you have work deadlines you get them done. While you are at work you do work, because you know you are supposed to. With things that don't have a deadline or that nobody is watching over you to make sure you do them it is super hard to will yourself to do ALL of them. It isn't that you don't have willpower, it's that you're human. You do have willpower because you do get stuff done, you're human because you don't get everything done every day." I really appreciated that because I think that is why I get frustrated with myself when I don't finish my list. I think on some level that I don't have willpower. I think I needed to hear that I do have willpower because I am doing hard things, that no one but myself is requiring of me. I didn't make it to my yoga today, but after talking with Husband I've decided that that is okay. I did get things done today. Tomorrow I can do yoga.
Goodnight!
_Camille
Today is Day 16!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today good. I will admit that there were some stumbling blocks today and some frustration, but I have to recognize that today was actually good.
I slept in till 10, which was a stumbling block, but I tried to press forward.
I watched a General Conference Talk and I said a prayer this morning
I did my laundry and the dishes
I took a test for one of my classes. (It actually took longer than I thought it would.) I'm glad I got that done today because it's due Friday and Friday we are going out of town.
I kept an eating log and I did okay on the elimination diet. (Update on that: I've decided to change it to no corn, no dairy, no soy. I already am gluten free, but these things are said to make auto-immune disorder symptoms worse. So for now I'm talking those out. Which shouldn't be that hard since I've but somewhat doing it anyway.) There was corn in my vegetable mix today though. : /
I ate 3+ meals today.
How do you feel physically?
I feel tired. It is time for my sleep now.
How do you feel mentally?
I feel good now. I felt frustrated and anxious earlier, but after a talk with Husband I feel better.
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel okay. Kind of even-keel. This is probably the tiredness speaking.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
As mentioned before, I felt frustrated earlier today. I did what I was hoping to in the morning, (even after a slow wake up, which I let myself be frustrated about.) I also accomplished a big task today of taking my test. That is a big load off of this week's stresses. I just didn't do everything I wanted to today, not because of lack of time, but because it was hard to will myself to do some of it. I was venting to Husband and he had an epiphany. He said "You go to work when you are supposed to go to work. When you have work deadlines you get them done. While you are at work you do work, because you know you are supposed to. With things that don't have a deadline or that nobody is watching over you to make sure you do them it is super hard to will yourself to do ALL of them. It isn't that you don't have willpower, it's that you're human. You do have willpower because you do get stuff done, you're human because you don't get everything done every day." I really appreciated that because I think that is why I get frustrated with myself when I don't finish my list. I think on some level that I don't have willpower. I think I needed to hear that I do have willpower because I am doing hard things, that no one but myself is requiring of me. I didn't make it to my yoga today, but after talking with Husband I've decided that that is okay. I did get things done today. Tomorrow I can do yoga.
Goodnight!
_Camille
Monday, October 7, 2013
Day 15 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is Day 15!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today was great! I started implementing the changes and so far I like them. : )
I got up and watched a talk from General Conference (One that I missed) this morning and I actually prayed. (My prayers are usually in bed, as a last minute thought.) Praying during the day was nice. I felt relieved and like I had less burdens to carry today. : )
I did the daily chores plus cleaned up the dinner mess from the other day.
I ate 3 meals today!
I kept an eating log. : )
I did not eat any candy!
I brushed my teeth this morning and I will tonight
I will wash my face too.
I did yoga today! I did one of the routines I had planned for today. : )
I did some young women prep today. : )
I did schoolwork for an hour today. : )
I brushed my hair today and I did my hair and make up today.
I made a meal plan and made dinner tonight.
How do you feel physically?
I feel good. I've noticed that around 9:00 I start to feel really tired. Maybe I should take that into consideration and maybe start getting ready for bed at that time... Who knows?
How do you feel mentally?
I feel good. Today was good. My mind felt better today. I just took the weekly progress photos, so of course that makes me anxious. I'm trying to fight it though.
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel a little vulnerable with my weekly progress photos. I don't feel anger or anxiety about other things though, so I think this is still progress.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
I feel good about the challenge. The modifications went well today. I think the key is to continually find things to motivate me AND sustain me. I think I need the peace and the fire, if that makes sense. Well onto tomorrow then right?
Today is Day 15!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today was great! I started implementing the changes and so far I like them. : )
I got up and watched a talk from General Conference (One that I missed) this morning and I actually prayed. (My prayers are usually in bed, as a last minute thought.) Praying during the day was nice. I felt relieved and like I had less burdens to carry today. : )
I did the daily chores plus cleaned up the dinner mess from the other day.
I ate 3 meals today!
I kept an eating log. : )
I did not eat any candy!
I brushed my teeth this morning and I will tonight
I will wash my face too.
I did yoga today! I did one of the routines I had planned for today. : )
I did some young women prep today. : )
I did schoolwork for an hour today. : )
I brushed my hair today and I did my hair and make up today.
I made a meal plan and made dinner tonight.
How do you feel physically?
I feel good. I've noticed that around 9:00 I start to feel really tired. Maybe I should take that into consideration and maybe start getting ready for bed at that time... Who knows?
How do you feel mentally?
I feel good. Today was good. My mind felt better today. I just took the weekly progress photos, so of course that makes me anxious. I'm trying to fight it though.
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel a little vulnerable with my weekly progress photos. I don't feel anger or anxiety about other things though, so I think this is still progress.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
I feel good about the challenge. The modifications went well today. I think the key is to continually find things to motivate me AND sustain me. I think I need the peace and the fire, if that makes sense. Well onto tomorrow then right?
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Day 14 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is Day 14! I've finished Week 1 & 2!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today was great. Today was the second day of the semi-anual General Conference I mentioned in last night's post, which meant more talks from men of God who bring warmth and love to my heart. I didn't mention it on my last post but here is a link that will have all the talks either in video or in text form if anyone is interested. (That is if anyone but my mom is actually reading my blog.) The link is www.lds.org
I actually got up when I intended to this morning! It was hard, but we were going to be late to a breakfast at my Uncle's house if I didn't. It wasn't 7:30, which is the time I would like to get up on weekdays (especially when I take Husband to work) but I still feel like it was a victory. I find it ESPECIALLY challenging to get up at a time that early on the weekends. I've been told that going to bed at the same time and getting up at the same time each day (even on the weekends) will be beneficial to me, I just haven't gotten there yet. Baby steps.
I brushed my teeth and I will brush them before bed too. : )
I brushed my hair.
I ate at least 3 meals today, I pigged out. (It was so delicious!)
I listened to General Conference which counts as reading scriptures, because it is getting counsel from modern day Prophets. : )
I washed my face last night. Oh and on that note the yoga I did last night was GREAT! It was a yoga/strength training combo and because the strength training part was not intense it was perfect. Just what I felt like I needed. : )
I prepped for Young Women's lessons today. (I need to keep prepping tomorrow.)
I am doing my daily journal now, I will wash my face and I will pray tonight.
How do you feel physically?
I actually feel pretty good physically. I've decided I want to be more specific with my physical symptoms in this journal so that I can track them better. So with that thought in mind: I have been having restless legs a lot lately! I think it is a combination of me sitting a lot and the blood not flowing through my body enough and of my nerves just acting out. What I did today was stretch and try to calm down my shins or calf muscles when I feel the sensation coming. This helped. Also, I feel like my eating habits are making my stomach feel angry. I am either not eating enough or eating too much so I want to work on that. Besides that I feel good.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel good. I actually took the time and thought about what changes I could make to the challenge so that it would not intimidate me and so that it would have the potential to flow better and feel more successful so because of that, I feel good. My mind feels clear.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I also feel good. Like I mentioned yesterday, it is so important for my personal cup to be filled on all measures. Having my personal spiritual cup be filled over these two days has been very helpful. It energizes me and motivates me to fill my other cups and keep pressing forward. Also I felt that some of the talks that were given were given specifically to me and my needs. This was SO encouraging. It was like I finally had someone saying: what I'm going through is real, it is difficult, but there are servants of the Lord rooting for me, which to me means the Lord is rooting for me. It was very cleansing for my heart to hear these things.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are: I feel a new resolve to move forward. I made my 3 yoga times per week minimum last night and I sat down and thought about the changes/modifications I want to make. Those actions helped me to feel better about the Challenge in general and to feel that I deserve my weekly prize. I'm excited for tomorrow because I can continue with what is working and I can work in some new ways to approach the goals. : )
Here are the changes:
Today is Day 14! I've finished Week 1 & 2!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today was great. Today was the second day of the semi-anual General Conference I mentioned in last night's post, which meant more talks from men of God who bring warmth and love to my heart. I didn't mention it on my last post but here is a link that will have all the talks either in video or in text form if anyone is interested. (That is if anyone but my mom is actually reading my blog.) The link is www.lds.org
I actually got up when I intended to this morning! It was hard, but we were going to be late to a breakfast at my Uncle's house if I didn't. It wasn't 7:30, which is the time I would like to get up on weekdays (especially when I take Husband to work) but I still feel like it was a victory. I find it ESPECIALLY challenging to get up at a time that early on the weekends. I've been told that going to bed at the same time and getting up at the same time each day (even on the weekends) will be beneficial to me, I just haven't gotten there yet. Baby steps.
I brushed my teeth and I will brush them before bed too. : )
I brushed my hair.
I ate at least 3 meals today, I pigged out. (It was so delicious!)
I listened to General Conference which counts as reading scriptures, because it is getting counsel from modern day Prophets. : )
I washed my face last night. Oh and on that note the yoga I did last night was GREAT! It was a yoga/strength training combo and because the strength training part was not intense it was perfect. Just what I felt like I needed. : )
I prepped for Young Women's lessons today. (I need to keep prepping tomorrow.)
I am doing my daily journal now, I will wash my face and I will pray tonight.
How do you feel physically?
I actually feel pretty good physically. I've decided I want to be more specific with my physical symptoms in this journal so that I can track them better. So with that thought in mind: I have been having restless legs a lot lately! I think it is a combination of me sitting a lot and the blood not flowing through my body enough and of my nerves just acting out. What I did today was stretch and try to calm down my shins or calf muscles when I feel the sensation coming. This helped. Also, I feel like my eating habits are making my stomach feel angry. I am either not eating enough or eating too much so I want to work on that. Besides that I feel good.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel good. I actually took the time and thought about what changes I could make to the challenge so that it would not intimidate me and so that it would have the potential to flow better and feel more successful so because of that, I feel good. My mind feels clear.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I also feel good. Like I mentioned yesterday, it is so important for my personal cup to be filled on all measures. Having my personal spiritual cup be filled over these two days has been very helpful. It energizes me and motivates me to fill my other cups and keep pressing forward. Also I felt that some of the talks that were given were given specifically to me and my needs. This was SO encouraging. It was like I finally had someone saying: what I'm going through is real, it is difficult, but there are servants of the Lord rooting for me, which to me means the Lord is rooting for me. It was very cleansing for my heart to hear these things.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are: I feel a new resolve to move forward. I made my 3 yoga times per week minimum last night and I sat down and thought about the changes/modifications I want to make. Those actions helped me to feel better about the Challenge in general and to feel that I deserve my weekly prize. I'm excited for tomorrow because I can continue with what is working and I can work in some new ways to approach the goals. : )
Here are the changes:
- I have decided to make the weekly progress photos be posted on Mondays instead of Sundays. Sunday nights have the potential to be hectic because that is when we have been spending time with friends.
- This weekend has inspired me to read or watch 15 minutes of a General Conference talk in my mornings, this will be my personal scripture time for the time being. I can wake up and be groggy, get my morning vitamins and before I turn on a TV show I can turn on my talk and let my brain wake up to those thoughts. I also want to pray in the mornings with this activity.
- I have decided to be more specific with the physical question.
- I have decided that the night before while I am doing my nighttime routine I will assign a yoga practice to the next day. (It doesn't have to be locked into one, it'll probably be ones that I can choose from.) This will help me to be excited to do my yoga and this I'm hoping will help me to do it more regularly, instead of squeezing it in during the weekend, hoping to make my bare minimum. (Nightly plan.) : )
- I have also decided instead of each mental health task being its own goal, to consolidate them into one goal. Do one mental health task per week. This way, when I am planning the next day I can look at my commitments, look at what has been a trigger for me and pick a time to do a mental health activity. I feel like this way I can utilize the tools I have, and not feel overwhelmed by that section of the challenge anymore. (Nightly plan.) : )
- I want to have nightly planning time for the next day. : )
- I have decided this next week instead of saying "NO sugar!" This week I will say "No candy." then I will work from there.
- If I watch TV episodes in a row (which I do. a lot.) Then before I can click on the next episode I need to get up off the couch and do something. I can look at my tasks and start a task or I can stretch or I can tidy up around me, just something that gets me up and doing things.
These are my changes. I feel really good about them and I am excited to start implementing them. I want to keep having faith in my efforts and faith in the Lord as he helps me.
Onto Week 3!
Goodnight!
-Camille
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Day 12 & 13 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is Day 13 but I will be posting for day 12 as well (I actually forgot!)
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Day 12: Went well, I did just want to sleep in and rest all day before I went to work. So that was a bit difficult, because sometimes resting all day feels SOOO nice. But then the body gets used to it. : / ugh.
I did eat 3 meals.
I haven't been keeping up my elimination diet, or eating log. I haven't been eating corn but I have been allowing dairy and sugar to sneak up on me.
I went to bed on time.
I brushed my teeth.
I brushed my hair.
I did YOGA! I ended up doing nightime yoga because it was so late and it was great.
I prayed. : )
I emailed and looked more into yoga training schools. (My something brave.)
Day 13:
Today was a good day. Today was General Conference (A broadcast from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, where the leaders of the church speak to us.) I felt inspired and uplifted by the messages and honestly they helped me to think about things in my life.
I brushed my teeth
I showered.
I washed my face
I am going to do yoga right after I post this!
I did read scriptures today and I did pray. I basically spent the whole day filing my spiritual cup which I forget how important that really is. Today was very enlightening.
I pondered about this challenge today, and I'm going to do some more pondering tomorrow.
I did an Anatomy quiz today! (1 hr of schoolwork + 1 Anatomy assignment)
I will go to bed on time.
How do you feel physically?
Day 12: I just felt tired.
Day 13: Physically, I feel good. My nerves were somewhat sensitive today, which is a sign of an episode coming, but it's not too bad today so hopefully I can catch it before it gets too bad.
How do you feel mentally?
I feel good mentally. I am somewhat worried about my weekly progress picture tomorrow. I'm starting to get antsy about getting into shape, and that's not really why I'm doing the project. It will be a benefit of it, I'm sure, but I'm getting anxious. (It's a control thing, like well the mind stuff takes a long time to see the benefits of and the spiritual stuff's benefits aren't always visible, so I should be working out harder so that my body can change so I can see that progress, right??) I feel this way yet I'm barely (and I mean barely) making my 3-4 times a week minimum with Yoga. My perfectionism really sneaks up on me in the weirdest ways, doesn't it?
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel okay. Thinking about the important things I learned from General Conference today was really helpful. Thinking about my control issues makes me feel a little nervous and uptight. Which to me is a sign that a change of thought patterns is in order. I will ponder that tomorrow when I am pondering the project in general.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are that I still want to do it. I want to do good things for myself so that I can keep living my life. I think that sometimes I forget to take care of myself and my needs get neglected. Other times I get worried about my needs that I neglect to live my life outside of "taking care of myself". Sooo I want the challenge to help me find balance between the two. I want to do the good, important things for my mental, physical and spiritual well-being. I also want to live my life with out worry of goals and deadlines not being met. I also want to let go of my need for control and perfect situations. This need is a big anxiety trigger for me, and it is so unnecessary. Sigh. (That is what I keep telling myself anyway.)
Anyway, more info on the things I will be pondering/modifying/changing the way I think about them.
Tomorrow!
Xoxo!
Today is Day 13 but I will be posting for day 12 as well (I actually forgot!)
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Day 12: Went well, I did just want to sleep in and rest all day before I went to work. So that was a bit difficult, because sometimes resting all day feels SOOO nice. But then the body gets used to it. : / ugh.
I did eat 3 meals.
I haven't been keeping up my elimination diet, or eating log. I haven't been eating corn but I have been allowing dairy and sugar to sneak up on me.
I went to bed on time.
I brushed my teeth.
I brushed my hair.
I did YOGA! I ended up doing nightime yoga because it was so late and it was great.
I prayed. : )
I emailed and looked more into yoga training schools. (My something brave.)
Day 13:
Today was a good day. Today was General Conference (A broadcast from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, where the leaders of the church speak to us.) I felt inspired and uplifted by the messages and honestly they helped me to think about things in my life.
I brushed my teeth
I showered.
I washed my face
I am going to do yoga right after I post this!
I did read scriptures today and I did pray. I basically spent the whole day filing my spiritual cup which I forget how important that really is. Today was very enlightening.
I pondered about this challenge today, and I'm going to do some more pondering tomorrow.
I did an Anatomy quiz today! (1 hr of schoolwork + 1 Anatomy assignment)
I will go to bed on time.
How do you feel physically?
Day 12: I just felt tired.
Day 13: Physically, I feel good. My nerves were somewhat sensitive today, which is a sign of an episode coming, but it's not too bad today so hopefully I can catch it before it gets too bad.
How do you feel mentally?
I feel good mentally. I am somewhat worried about my weekly progress picture tomorrow. I'm starting to get antsy about getting into shape, and that's not really why I'm doing the project. It will be a benefit of it, I'm sure, but I'm getting anxious. (It's a control thing, like well the mind stuff takes a long time to see the benefits of and the spiritual stuff's benefits aren't always visible, so I should be working out harder so that my body can change so I can see that progress, right??) I feel this way yet I'm barely (and I mean barely) making my 3-4 times a week minimum with Yoga. My perfectionism really sneaks up on me in the weirdest ways, doesn't it?
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel okay. Thinking about the important things I learned from General Conference today was really helpful. Thinking about my control issues makes me feel a little nervous and uptight. Which to me is a sign that a change of thought patterns is in order. I will ponder that tomorrow when I am pondering the project in general.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are that I still want to do it. I want to do good things for myself so that I can keep living my life. I think that sometimes I forget to take care of myself and my needs get neglected. Other times I get worried about my needs that I neglect to live my life outside of "taking care of myself". Sooo I want the challenge to help me find balance between the two. I want to do the good, important things for my mental, physical and spiritual well-being. I also want to live my life with out worry of goals and deadlines not being met. I also want to let go of my need for control and perfect situations. This need is a big anxiety trigger for me, and it is so unnecessary. Sigh. (That is what I keep telling myself anyway.)
Anyway, more info on the things I will be pondering/modifying/changing the way I think about them.
Tomorrow!
Xoxo!
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Day 11 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is day 11!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today went well. It was cold outside and I didn't have any commitments so I spent a lot of the day wrapped up in a blanket. I can tell you what I did though.
I didn't wake up @7 or 7:30, I slept in until 9:30 ish. And I took a nap. I think I must have been tired today.
I did something brave today! I emailed two yoga teacher training programs to find out more information. : )
I ate 4 meals today. : ) (Still no corn, although occasionally HFCS will slip past me. I'm conscious of the normal corn so it is easier to avoid.)
To be honest, I didn't brush my hair today. : / but I will do it before bed. : )
I did prep things for Young Women's today. I prepped for our next mutual activity.
I will read scriptures and say a prayer tonight.
As for the rest, who knows... ; )
How do you feel physically?
I feel good. I didn't have much pain today, or discomfort. : )
How do you feel mentally?
I feel good mentally. I was productive today, and accepting days as they are is what will help me the most. So today I'm accepting today as it was. (I actually loved being lazy in my blanket all day, it felt great. So it is ironic that when I do have days like that I feel guilty like I should have been doing more. It's a hard balance between letting myself have lazy days occasionally and being okay with them and the lazy days turning into avoidance days.) But I'm trying. I didn't feel like I was avoiding anything today. Sometimes I just don't feel like I have that much to do, but when I make myself think of what I have to do then it becomes an obsession and a stressor. So I'm letting today be what it was, nice.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel good. I watched one of my favorite inspirational movies with Husband tonight and it just made my heart happy. (Forrest Gump) I also spoke to my Mom a lot on the phone today and we talked about some helpful things. I felt hopeful after our conversation. She talked a lot about how life is not black and white, and how you learn as you go, you don't have to "have everything figured out by a certain time in life" and apparently that is a struggle for me. Who knew?? ; )
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are: Keep on Keepin' on. Looking into those yoga training programs today motivated me to do my yoga. My mom said yoga training could take me places I might not even be planning for and I feel like that is true with yoga training and with some of my other goals, so I feel excited to keep working at this challenge, so I can live my life with a peaceful heart, not so I can live a perfect life. : ) Simple things make the difference, right.
P.S. I love watching a movie, snuggling with Husband on these cold days. Something as simple as that can make me feel so grateful and content.
Night!
Today is day 11!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today went well. It was cold outside and I didn't have any commitments so I spent a lot of the day wrapped up in a blanket. I can tell you what I did though.
I didn't wake up @7 or 7:30, I slept in until 9:30 ish. And I took a nap. I think I must have been tired today.
I did something brave today! I emailed two yoga teacher training programs to find out more information. : )
I ate 4 meals today. : ) (Still no corn, although occasionally HFCS will slip past me. I'm conscious of the normal corn so it is easier to avoid.)
To be honest, I didn't brush my hair today. : / but I will do it before bed. : )
I did prep things for Young Women's today. I prepped for our next mutual activity.
I will read scriptures and say a prayer tonight.
As for the rest, who knows... ; )
How do you feel physically?
I feel good. I didn't have much pain today, or discomfort. : )
How do you feel mentally?
I feel good mentally. I was productive today, and accepting days as they are is what will help me the most. So today I'm accepting today as it was. (I actually loved being lazy in my blanket all day, it felt great. So it is ironic that when I do have days like that I feel guilty like I should have been doing more. It's a hard balance between letting myself have lazy days occasionally and being okay with them and the lazy days turning into avoidance days.) But I'm trying. I didn't feel like I was avoiding anything today. Sometimes I just don't feel like I have that much to do, but when I make myself think of what I have to do then it becomes an obsession and a stressor. So I'm letting today be what it was, nice.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel good. I watched one of my favorite inspirational movies with Husband tonight and it just made my heart happy. (Forrest Gump) I also spoke to my Mom a lot on the phone today and we talked about some helpful things. I felt hopeful after our conversation. She talked a lot about how life is not black and white, and how you learn as you go, you don't have to "have everything figured out by a certain time in life" and apparently that is a struggle for me. Who knew?? ; )
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are: Keep on Keepin' on. Looking into those yoga training programs today motivated me to do my yoga. My mom said yoga training could take me places I might not even be planning for and I feel like that is true with yoga training and with some of my other goals, so I feel excited to keep working at this challenge, so I can live my life with a peaceful heart, not so I can live a perfect life. : ) Simple things make the difference, right.
P.S. I love watching a movie, snuggling with Husband on these cold days. Something as simple as that can make me feel so grateful and content.
Night!
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Day 10 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is day 10! Crazy!!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today went well. My Great Aunt's funeral was today and my cousins were in town for it. I LOVED having them in town, they spent the night at my place and it was great. Short, but great.
The funeral was nice. Some of the things that were said stayed with me. (There were some points that dragged on, but what can you do. ; ) ) I wasn't very close with this Great Aunt, I knew here and I have memories with her, but that is about it. Death has a way of making me ponder deep feelings and thoughts. It was cathartic to cry and say good-bye.
Anyway,
I got up at 8:30 today (So I slept in/ laid in bed for an hour)
I did my hair and makeup because of the funeral, but I'll still count it.
I brushed my teeth
I went to the funeral then I went to work
I only ate two meals today (forgot breakfast!)
How do you feel physically?
I feel tired. I'm starting to get tired around 9, which is great for my plan for the schedule, but the tiredness isn't as present at 10:30. Ironic, I know.
How do you feel mentally?
I feel tired mentally. I don't feel stressed, just tired. Like I worked hard today and I'm ready to rest. I came home from work and just wanted to veg. So I did, and I have to say that vegging/relaxing after a hard day feels great. I think I've discovered the goodness of relaxing after I have put forth my effort for the day, not avoiding life posing as "relaxing". This was a good reminder to me, to keep up the good work.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel good. I don't feel a heavy anxiety-ridden burden on my heart, and I don't feel a sense of doom and gloom hanging over my head. I think today was a good day, if only for that. : )
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts are that I want to keep doing it. Tomorrow I won't have a funeral or family stuff to do so I can focus on some of the things from my challenge. Something that I have learned in this process is that life goes on, whether there is a challenge in my life or not. I knew that I had commitments like work, etc. But actually doing life things, I think I just forgot about that. Ha. I guess my anxiety/depressive episodes make me forget about the things in life that aren't commitments or obligations, but they are things you do in life and they are okay. Last weekend when I was anxious that I didn't do much with the challenge, it was because I was living my "weekend life". Today I am living my "normal life" (the one where you get up, take care of yourself and then in essence, forget about yourself and work for a good cause.) What an eye opener. My challenge is a good idea, I still think so, but it's so relaxing to not have everything be about me. I'm going to ponder on this more and get back to you with ideas.
Goodnight!
P.S. 1/6 of the way through! Woot!
xoxo!
Today is day 10! Crazy!!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today went well. My Great Aunt's funeral was today and my cousins were in town for it. I LOVED having them in town, they spent the night at my place and it was great. Short, but great.
The funeral was nice. Some of the things that were said stayed with me. (There were some points that dragged on, but what can you do. ; ) ) I wasn't very close with this Great Aunt, I knew here and I have memories with her, but that is about it. Death has a way of making me ponder deep feelings and thoughts. It was cathartic to cry and say good-bye.
Anyway,
I got up at 8:30 today (So I slept in/ laid in bed for an hour)
I did my hair and makeup because of the funeral, but I'll still count it.
I brushed my teeth
I went to the funeral then I went to work
I only ate two meals today (forgot breakfast!)
How do you feel physically?
I feel tired. I'm starting to get tired around 9, which is great for my plan for the schedule, but the tiredness isn't as present at 10:30. Ironic, I know.
How do you feel mentally?
I feel tired mentally. I don't feel stressed, just tired. Like I worked hard today and I'm ready to rest. I came home from work and just wanted to veg. So I did, and I have to say that vegging/relaxing after a hard day feels great. I think I've discovered the goodness of relaxing after I have put forth my effort for the day, not avoiding life posing as "relaxing". This was a good reminder to me, to keep up the good work.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel good. I don't feel a heavy anxiety-ridden burden on my heart, and I don't feel a sense of doom and gloom hanging over my head. I think today was a good day, if only for that. : )
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts are that I want to keep doing it. Tomorrow I won't have a funeral or family stuff to do so I can focus on some of the things from my challenge. Something that I have learned in this process is that life goes on, whether there is a challenge in my life or not. I knew that I had commitments like work, etc. But actually doing life things, I think I just forgot about that. Ha. I guess my anxiety/depressive episodes make me forget about the things in life that aren't commitments or obligations, but they are things you do in life and they are okay. Last weekend when I was anxious that I didn't do much with the challenge, it was because I was living my "weekend life". Today I am living my "normal life" (the one where you get up, take care of yourself and then in essence, forget about yourself and work for a good cause.) What an eye opener. My challenge is a good idea, I still think so, but it's so relaxing to not have everything be about me. I'm going to ponder on this more and get back to you with ideas.
Goodnight!
P.S. 1/6 of the way through! Woot!
xoxo!
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Day 9 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is day 9!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today was great! *Side note.* Last night after my post, I brushed my hair, took a nice hot shower (did an ACV rinse on my hair), washed my face with honey and then used ACV and Witch Hazel as a toner, and then coconut oil as a moisturizer. THIS HELPED SO MUCH. I went to bed less frazzled, my face feeling great and less grumpy overall.
Anyway, Today was great.
I got up at 7, took Husband to work and did NOT go back to bed!
I cleaned the kitchen, the living room, the bedroom, did the laundry and the dishes.
I did my hour (plus some) of homework. I finished a project that is due Friday, (I hate doing it last minute.)
I brushed my hair.
I brushed my teeth.
I went to counseling. (Today's session was particularly cathartic. My counselor asked me about my relationship with God. Which to be honest for the past few years has been strained. We talked about things I would say to him if he were sitting next to me, and how I would go about expressing my anger and hurt that I've been avoiding for a long time. I don't know if it realizing my feelings, or if it was suddenly feeling like it was okay to express them. I felt like a weight had been lifted from me.)
Husband made dinner tonight. : )
It was a close call, but I made sure I did YOGA tonight. : )
I ate 3 meals today! (It was also a close call. I really do forget)
I will brush my teeth, wash my face, read my scriptures and say a prayer.
*My cousins are in town for a funeral so I will try my best to get to bed on time.
How do you feel physically?
I feel good. My back feels a little achy, but it could be from the cleaning today.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel good. I do think I obsess over things. Today was great, but I'm still trying to figure out how to involve some of weekly tasks and the mental exercises. I'm trying not to go there, but my mind always goes into "solving/fixing" mode.
How do you feel emotionally?
I felt like so many emotions came out of me today. So right now, it's like well I don't have much left, so I'll keep moving forward. (In a positive way.)
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
I feel great about the challenge. I feel like I could not have accomplished what I did today, if I had not stayed awake. I knew that going into my day so I was prepare to stay awake. What is hard is motivating myself to stay awake when I don't have pressing things happening. That is part of the reason why I came up with the challenge. So finding a way to get my butt out of bed, every day will really open up opportunities for me. I'm just hoping that I can help that action be a habit, so I can continue it.
Also, I'm antsy to get back to working out. My muscles are in an odd place right now. I haven't lifted weights in months, and frankly I get obsessive and go too hard at the gym and make my Fibro symptoms come and stay for a long period of time. It was wise for me to take a break from the gym while I am learning moderation, but I am antsy to get back to it. I think the hard part will be not going to crazy. My boss who is a Physical Therapist regularly tells his patients and myself "gradual consistency is what will help your body the most. Not a weekend warrior." Don't get me wrong, I love yoga, I just am in a rush to get in shape. I have to remember, "small and simple things."
Alright, today was good. See you tomorrow!
Camille
Today is day 9!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today was great! *Side note.* Last night after my post, I brushed my hair, took a nice hot shower (did an ACV rinse on my hair), washed my face with honey and then used ACV and Witch Hazel as a toner, and then coconut oil as a moisturizer. THIS HELPED SO MUCH. I went to bed less frazzled, my face feeling great and less grumpy overall.
Anyway, Today was great.
I got up at 7, took Husband to work and did NOT go back to bed!
I cleaned the kitchen, the living room, the bedroom, did the laundry and the dishes.
I did my hour (plus some) of homework. I finished a project that is due Friday, (I hate doing it last minute.)
I brushed my hair.
I brushed my teeth.
I went to counseling. (Today's session was particularly cathartic. My counselor asked me about my relationship with God. Which to be honest for the past few years has been strained. We talked about things I would say to him if he were sitting next to me, and how I would go about expressing my anger and hurt that I've been avoiding for a long time. I don't know if it realizing my feelings, or if it was suddenly feeling like it was okay to express them. I felt like a weight had been lifted from me.)
Husband made dinner tonight. : )
It was a close call, but I made sure I did YOGA tonight. : )
I ate 3 meals today! (It was also a close call. I really do forget)
I will brush my teeth, wash my face, read my scriptures and say a prayer.
*My cousins are in town for a funeral so I will try my best to get to bed on time.
How do you feel physically?
I feel good. My back feels a little achy, but it could be from the cleaning today.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel good. I do think I obsess over things. Today was great, but I'm still trying to figure out how to involve some of weekly tasks and the mental exercises. I'm trying not to go there, but my mind always goes into "solving/fixing" mode.
How do you feel emotionally?
I felt like so many emotions came out of me today. So right now, it's like well I don't have much left, so I'll keep moving forward. (In a positive way.)
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
I feel great about the challenge. I feel like I could not have accomplished what I did today, if I had not stayed awake. I knew that going into my day so I was prepare to stay awake. What is hard is motivating myself to stay awake when I don't have pressing things happening. That is part of the reason why I came up with the challenge. So finding a way to get my butt out of bed, every day will really open up opportunities for me. I'm just hoping that I can help that action be a habit, so I can continue it.
Also, I'm antsy to get back to working out. My muscles are in an odd place right now. I haven't lifted weights in months, and frankly I get obsessive and go too hard at the gym and make my Fibro symptoms come and stay for a long period of time. It was wise for me to take a break from the gym while I am learning moderation, but I am antsy to get back to it. I think the hard part will be not going to crazy. My boss who is a Physical Therapist regularly tells his patients and myself "gradual consistency is what will help your body the most. Not a weekend warrior." Don't get me wrong, I love yoga, I just am in a rush to get in shape. I have to remember, "small and simple things."
Alright, today was good. See you tomorrow!
Camille
Monday, September 30, 2013
Day 8 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is day 8!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
This is how today went:
I slept in this morning and had a difficult time "activating" myself. : / So basically today was an anxious day which means I didn't want to do much at all. Then work was CRAZY. So today consisted of me not wanting to do anything, then when I got to work it became a day of stress and irritability.
: / Sorry, readers. I'm going to take a bath and let today's stresses wash away.
How do you feel physically?
I actually feel okay. My heart was kind of racing when work was crazy, so now I just feel tired. Also, I caved and bought some stuff to make s'mores to make me feel better, so I have a bit of a sugar headache.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel okay. Actually, I'm looking forward to my counseling appointment tomorrow because I feel like days like today come too often, and I'd like a break from that. : )
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel emotionally tired. (This all sounds so whiny, I swear today wasn't that bad!) Tomorrow will be a new day and a new opportunity for good things. I feel hopeful about tomorrow. : )
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are: I was going to take some time to adjust some things in the challenge today, but alas I did not get to it. I would like to take some time to do that tomorrow, and realign myself with the tasks in the challenge. It's like that quote that says "Motivation does not last, but neither do showers that is why we recommend you do them everyday."
Moral of the story, I want to keep doing this. I'm learning that things will inevitably get in the way, and I will get in my own way. So I want to find ways to keep re-motivating myself and I want to find ways to learn how to out wit myself and the universe. : )
Here are the weekly progress photos I promised.
Today is day 8!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
This is how today went:
I slept in this morning and had a difficult time "activating" myself. : / So basically today was an anxious day which means I didn't want to do much at all. Then work was CRAZY. So today consisted of me not wanting to do anything, then when I got to work it became a day of stress and irritability.
: / Sorry, readers. I'm going to take a bath and let today's stresses wash away.
How do you feel physically?
I actually feel okay. My heart was kind of racing when work was crazy, so now I just feel tired. Also, I caved and bought some stuff to make s'mores to make me feel better, so I have a bit of a sugar headache.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel okay. Actually, I'm looking forward to my counseling appointment tomorrow because I feel like days like today come too often, and I'd like a break from that. : )
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel emotionally tired. (This all sounds so whiny, I swear today wasn't that bad!) Tomorrow will be a new day and a new opportunity for good things. I feel hopeful about tomorrow. : )
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are: I was going to take some time to adjust some things in the challenge today, but alas I did not get to it. I would like to take some time to do that tomorrow, and realign myself with the tasks in the challenge. It's like that quote that says "Motivation does not last, but neither do showers that is why we recommend you do them everyday."
Moral of the story, I want to keep doing this. I'm learning that things will inevitably get in the way, and I will get in my own way. So I want to find ways to keep re-motivating myself and I want to find ways to learn how to out wit myself and the universe. : )
Here are the weekly progress photos I promised.
The Deadly Frontal View.
From the Side
From Behind
As you can see I still have blue hair. : )
Also, please forgive Husband's laundry in the shots.
Till tomorrow!
Good night!
XoXo!
Sunday, September 29, 2013
Day 7 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is day Seven!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today was Sunday so today was a good day. It was day 7 of my challenge, which is AWESOME, but because it was Sunday I ran into a problem similar to yesterday. Time. Some Sundays are filled with time, but other Sundays are filled with seeing friends. (I'm not complaining, I recharge my spending time with people I care about so this is a good problem to have, I just haven't figured out how to balance my personal stuff with my social stuff.)
Here is what I did accomplish:
I brushed my teeth this morning (I will brush tonight too.)
I will wash my face tonight.
I actually styled my hair. (It definitely helped me to feel pretty.)
I went to Church. : )
After church I made banana bread for a friend and then we went to their house. Then we went to another friend's house and we just got home. (10:30 p.m.)
So that pretty much sums up my day. : /
How do you feel physically?
I feel good. I started my period today, so those symptoms aren't fun, but besides that I feel good.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel confused. I don't do well with inconsistencies (I'm working on it.) and I feel as though this weekend's activities were great, I love spending time with people, but I also feel like this weekend I didn't accomplish much challenge wise. This to me shows an inconsistency, so I feel confused.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel a little uneasy. When my mind feels confused, my emotions tend to get uneasy. I enjoyed this weekend, and I don't want to let guiltiness get in the way of that.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
The things I wanted to do this weekend are: I was going to do a hair mask or rinse tonight, a restorative yoga practice and maybe a meditative/mental practice today, and get some homework done. But alas, no time. I spoke to my mom today and she said that maybe I should make some modifications for the weekend. I think she is right, maybe the way I think about the weekends while I'm doing the challenge should be different. She also said the point of this project is to keep going. Rule #1 is to not give up no matter what I do or don't accomplish. I think I need to remember that. The prizes aren't dependent on what I accomplish, the prizes are dependent on me still being committed to the project as a whole. Sigh. Just because my first week of the project didn't go "perfect", it does not mean that the project isn't right or that the project is a waste. Phew. Okay so now that that thought is off my chest, I feel a little better.
Keep on going, Camille. Keep on trying. Keeping on learning and most importantly, keep on adapting/modifying. Isn't that the whole reason for the project? Yes. The project was designed to get myself to develop habits that will help me live my life. So because it is designed with my happiness in mind, I can adapt if I need to DANG IT! Okay. rant over.
Tomorrow starts Week 2. It will be great. (Also, I will post the end of week progress photos tomorrow night, because Husband is in bed and I use his iphone to take the pictures. I promise I will do them.)
Thanks for being apart of this process.
Goodnight!
Today is day Seven!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today was Sunday so today was a good day. It was day 7 of my challenge, which is AWESOME, but because it was Sunday I ran into a problem similar to yesterday. Time. Some Sundays are filled with time, but other Sundays are filled with seeing friends. (I'm not complaining, I recharge my spending time with people I care about so this is a good problem to have, I just haven't figured out how to balance my personal stuff with my social stuff.)
Here is what I did accomplish:
I brushed my teeth this morning (I will brush tonight too.)
I will wash my face tonight.
I actually styled my hair. (It definitely helped me to feel pretty.)
I went to Church. : )
After church I made banana bread for a friend and then we went to their house. Then we went to another friend's house and we just got home. (10:30 p.m.)
So that pretty much sums up my day. : /
How do you feel physically?
I feel good. I started my period today, so those symptoms aren't fun, but besides that I feel good.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel confused. I don't do well with inconsistencies (I'm working on it.) and I feel as though this weekend's activities were great, I love spending time with people, but I also feel like this weekend I didn't accomplish much challenge wise. This to me shows an inconsistency, so I feel confused.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel a little uneasy. When my mind feels confused, my emotions tend to get uneasy. I enjoyed this weekend, and I don't want to let guiltiness get in the way of that.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
The things I wanted to do this weekend are: I was going to do a hair mask or rinse tonight, a restorative yoga practice and maybe a meditative/mental practice today, and get some homework done. But alas, no time. I spoke to my mom today and she said that maybe I should make some modifications for the weekend. I think she is right, maybe the way I think about the weekends while I'm doing the challenge should be different. She also said the point of this project is to keep going. Rule #1 is to not give up no matter what I do or don't accomplish. I think I need to remember that. The prizes aren't dependent on what I accomplish, the prizes are dependent on me still being committed to the project as a whole. Sigh. Just because my first week of the project didn't go "perfect", it does not mean that the project isn't right or that the project is a waste. Phew. Okay so now that that thought is off my chest, I feel a little better.
Keep on going, Camille. Keep on trying. Keeping on learning and most importantly, keep on adapting/modifying. Isn't that the whole reason for the project? Yes. The project was designed to get myself to develop habits that will help me live my life. So because it is designed with my happiness in mind, I can adapt if I need to DANG IT! Okay. rant over.
Tomorrow starts Week 2. It will be great. (Also, I will post the end of week progress photos tomorrow night, because Husband is in bed and I use his iphone to take the pictures. I promise I will do them.)
Thanks for being apart of this process.
Goodnight!
Saturday, September 28, 2013
Day 6 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is day Six!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today went well. I went shopping for my week 1 prize and I ended up spending a long time out and about so I didn't get a lot done, but seeing my prize still makes me happy and motivated.
I also got week 2's prize and week 3's prize. What can I say they were having a sale!
Anywho, let's get going on the tasks:
I slept in this morning, so no 7am wake up for me today.
I did not do yoga today but I did go on a walk to my office with Husband. (I left my bike there so we had to walk to get it back.)
I brushed my teeth this morning.
I got a lot done today, just not necessarily challenge related things. It's funny, I didn't turn on the TV once. So I don't feel like I was lazy, I think my household duties just caught up with me today that's all.
I did not read my scriptures but I did go to the Relief Society Broadcast, which was very uplifting.
I did do my hair and makeup.
I am writing my daily journal now @ 11:30 (Saturdays seem to be filled with errands and hanging out with friends.)
How do you feel physically?
I feel good. : ) No pain today.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I also feel good. I don't feel too pressured or stressed today.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel good. Writing this daily journal helped me to see that I will have to make some modifications for Saturday nights and I'm trying to just roll with that. It's a modification, not a failure, right?
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
I still really believe in the challenge. I was talking to my friend about it tonight and she said "I think that is such a great thing to do." It was nice to hear feedback from someone who isn't the Husband and isn't my Mother. (They both give great feedback, but they also have insider information, having someone who is on the outside still approve was nice.) Also, I want to be able to do the things in life I want to do. Without being afraid of failure, and without being afraid to even start. My prize has got me pumped again, and frankly today's events have got me pumped as well. I know if you look at task list today it doesn't seem like today was that successful, but how I felt today was a success and I will take that.
Also, tomorrow is weekly progress photo night. Sigh. Oh well, another thing to keep me motivated. Now onto doing the mentally healing things, I haven't quite figured out how to fit those in. Hopefully tomorrow I can do one, if not then week 2 will be where I figure that out. : )
Maybe I'll post a picture of my Week 1 prize tomorrow.
Today is day Six!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today went well. I went shopping for my week 1 prize and I ended up spending a long time out and about so I didn't get a lot done, but seeing my prize still makes me happy and motivated.
I also got week 2's prize and week 3's prize. What can I say they were having a sale!
Anywho, let's get going on the tasks:
I slept in this morning, so no 7am wake up for me today.
I did not do yoga today but I did go on a walk to my office with Husband. (I left my bike there so we had to walk to get it back.)
I brushed my teeth this morning.
I got a lot done today, just not necessarily challenge related things. It's funny, I didn't turn on the TV once. So I don't feel like I was lazy, I think my household duties just caught up with me today that's all.
I did not read my scriptures but I did go to the Relief Society Broadcast, which was very uplifting.
I did do my hair and makeup.
I am writing my daily journal now @ 11:30 (Saturdays seem to be filled with errands and hanging out with friends.)
How do you feel physically?
I feel good. : ) No pain today.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I also feel good. I don't feel too pressured or stressed today.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel good. Writing this daily journal helped me to see that I will have to make some modifications for Saturday nights and I'm trying to just roll with that. It's a modification, not a failure, right?
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
I still really believe in the challenge. I was talking to my friend about it tonight and she said "I think that is such a great thing to do." It was nice to hear feedback from someone who isn't the Husband and isn't my Mother. (They both give great feedback, but they also have insider information, having someone who is on the outside still approve was nice.) Also, I want to be able to do the things in life I want to do. Without being afraid of failure, and without being afraid to even start. My prize has got me pumped again, and frankly today's events have got me pumped as well. I know if you look at task list today it doesn't seem like today was that successful, but how I felt today was a success and I will take that.
Also, tomorrow is weekly progress photo night. Sigh. Oh well, another thing to keep me motivated. Now onto doing the mentally healing things, I haven't quite figured out how to fit those in. Hopefully tomorrow I can do one, if not then week 2 will be where I figure that out. : )
Maybe I'll post a picture of my Week 1 prize tomorrow.
Friday, September 27, 2013
Day 5 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is day Five!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today went well! I don't know if I had that many changes in what I accomplished, but I had one important one! (Yoga!)
I ate three meals today
I kept a food log (and wrote down what I ate on the days I forgot to write down.)
I did not get up at 7. (I slept until 9:00, this is probably going to be the hardest one.) Getting up at 9 was better for me because I got more done than if I had gotten up at my usual 11.
I brushed my teeth this morning and I will brush them tonight.
I will wash my face tonight.
I DID YOGA TODAY!!! The practice I did on Monday just did not do it for me but the practice I did today DID. I really didn't have oodles of time to do it, but I was really determined. This practice was just good and I'm glad I did it. I forget what it is like to feel alive when I spend most of my time avoiding that feeling. When I let myself do good things I feel like my heart wakes up from a long nap. So I'm grateful I could do it today, even if it was only 20 minutes. : )
I will read my scriptures tonight. (I did read them last night.)
I actually said a prayer after yoga today. It was nice.
I showered today! (mock if you want, this is a victory for me.)
I brushed my hair today.
I did my daily chore and the dishes.
I planned and cooked dinner.
I am doing my daily journal now.
How do you feel physically?
Good. I feel good. : )
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel good. At the back of my mind I keep thinking about things I could be doing, but I am trying not to send energy there. I want to be happy with how today was for me, and let that happiness motivate me tomorrow.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I also feel good. I'm still feeling anxious and easily worried/fearful about things, but that is not going to go away over night, so baby steps. For the most part I do feel good. No blues today.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
I like the challenge. I'm feeling hopeful (about the challenge at least). I'm thinking over the weekend I will incorporate some of the weekly things (probably one or two) that I have been neglecting to start seeing how I feel about those "little things" too.
Also, I came across this list on buzzfeed.com that shows comics depicting depression. Some of the comics are SO ACCURATE! (I apologize for the swears) I thought I would share it with you all.
http://www.buzzfeed.com/hnigatu/comics-that-capture-the-frustrations-of-depression
Night!
XoXo!
Today is day Five!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today went well! I don't know if I had that many changes in what I accomplished, but I had one important one! (Yoga!)
I ate three meals today
I kept a food log (and wrote down what I ate on the days I forgot to write down.)
I did not get up at 7. (I slept until 9:00, this is probably going to be the hardest one.) Getting up at 9 was better for me because I got more done than if I had gotten up at my usual 11.
I brushed my teeth this morning and I will brush them tonight.
I will wash my face tonight.
I DID YOGA TODAY!!! The practice I did on Monday just did not do it for me but the practice I did today DID. I really didn't have oodles of time to do it, but I was really determined. This practice was just good and I'm glad I did it. I forget what it is like to feel alive when I spend most of my time avoiding that feeling. When I let myself do good things I feel like my heart wakes up from a long nap. So I'm grateful I could do it today, even if it was only 20 minutes. : )
I will read my scriptures tonight. (I did read them last night.)
I actually said a prayer after yoga today. It was nice.
I showered today! (mock if you want, this is a victory for me.)
I brushed my hair today.
I did my daily chore and the dishes.
I planned and cooked dinner.
I am doing my daily journal now.
How do you feel physically?
Good. I feel good. : )
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel good. At the back of my mind I keep thinking about things I could be doing, but I am trying not to send energy there. I want to be happy with how today was for me, and let that happiness motivate me tomorrow.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I also feel good. I'm still feeling anxious and easily worried/fearful about things, but that is not going to go away over night, so baby steps. For the most part I do feel good. No blues today.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
I like the challenge. I'm feeling hopeful (about the challenge at least). I'm thinking over the weekend I will incorporate some of the weekly things (probably one or two) that I have been neglecting to start seeing how I feel about those "little things" too.
Also, I came across this list on buzzfeed.com that shows comics depicting depression. Some of the comics are SO ACCURATE! (I apologize for the swears) I thought I would share it with you all.
http://www.buzzfeed.com/hnigatu/comics-that-capture-the-frustrations-of-depression
Night!
XoXo!
Thursday, September 26, 2013
Day 4 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is day Four.
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
I think today went well. I finally took an exam for anatomy. (it is an independent study class and I've been procrastinating taking the exams for a looong time.) So that was a plus, my score on the test however, made me feel very unmotivated for the rest of the day. : /
Here is what I did do:
I did wake up at 7:00 (I took Husband to work and because it was pretty chilly today when I got home, I cuddled in a blanket in bed... and feel asleep. haha! woops!)
I took my anatomy exam!
I brushed my teeth in the am and I will brush them tonight.
I will read my scriptures tonight.
I will pray tonight.
I need a shower, (gross I know) I had a hard time motivating myself to work out, yet I wanted to work out so I was waiting to shower until after I had worked out. (This believe it or not is a common negative cycle for me. I guess it is somewhat refreshing to admit it to the blogging world.) *I will shower tonight before I go to bed.
I also would like to do something calming tonight. Especially because today I have somewhat been on edge. SO I think I will try to do something good like that.
I am doing my daily journal right now. : )
How do you feel physically?
Physically, I feel okay. I splurged and got GF mac & cheese ( gluten free, dairy free and soy free, exciting I know.) and GF donuts. (HFCS free, but definitely not sugar free.) I still feel good though. I also want to add that when my mind gets restless, my body gets restless and I have been craving exercise, but I keep finding excuses not to do it.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel tired. Like I have been through a hard day. Tomorrow will be a new day.
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel a little sad. I'm trying hard not to get caught up in my old habits of being frustrated with myself. I keep telling me self, that THIS is the whole point of the challenge. TO KEEP GOING, EVEN WHEN YOU HAD BAD DAYS. So I'm focusing on that.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
Well, I would like to incorporate some more of the mental exercises so I can combat my anxiety tendencies. I think some of the habits I'm learning are great, but I think it is time to start adding the weekly mental stuff too. (line upon line.) Besides that thought, I still feel good about the challenge. I mean it can be what I want it to be, and right now I want it to be good. So I'm going to work on making it good. : )
Night!
XoXo
Today is day Four.
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
I think today went well. I finally took an exam for anatomy. (it is an independent study class and I've been procrastinating taking the exams for a looong time.) So that was a plus, my score on the test however, made me feel very unmotivated for the rest of the day. : /
Here is what I did do:
I did wake up at 7:00 (I took Husband to work and because it was pretty chilly today when I got home, I cuddled in a blanket in bed... and feel asleep. haha! woops!)
I took my anatomy exam!
I brushed my teeth in the am and I will brush them tonight.
I will read my scriptures tonight.
I will pray tonight.
I need a shower, (gross I know) I had a hard time motivating myself to work out, yet I wanted to work out so I was waiting to shower until after I had worked out. (This believe it or not is a common negative cycle for me. I guess it is somewhat refreshing to admit it to the blogging world.) *I will shower tonight before I go to bed.
I also would like to do something calming tonight. Especially because today I have somewhat been on edge. SO I think I will try to do something good like that.
I am doing my daily journal right now. : )
How do you feel physically?
Physically, I feel okay. I splurged and got GF mac & cheese ( gluten free, dairy free and soy free, exciting I know.) and GF donuts. (HFCS free, but definitely not sugar free.) I still feel good though. I also want to add that when my mind gets restless, my body gets restless and I have been craving exercise, but I keep finding excuses not to do it.
How do you feel mentally?
Mentally, I feel tired. Like I have been through a hard day. Tomorrow will be a new day.
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel a little sad. I'm trying hard not to get caught up in my old habits of being frustrated with myself. I keep telling me self, that THIS is the whole point of the challenge. TO KEEP GOING, EVEN WHEN YOU HAD BAD DAYS. So I'm focusing on that.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
Well, I would like to incorporate some more of the mental exercises so I can combat my anxiety tendencies. I think some of the habits I'm learning are great, but I think it is time to start adding the weekly mental stuff too. (line upon line.) Besides that thought, I still feel good about the challenge. I mean it can be what I want it to be, and right now I want it to be good. So I'm going to work on making it good. : )
Night!
XoXo
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
Day 3 of 60 Day Challenge!
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is day three!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today actually went well. I think that what I had was the flu because I felt like I had a high fever last night and then this morning I just woke up feeling tired and slightly queasy. This to me meant that my fever broke and I am on the mend. I took a nap today so I could give my body some good rest, and I told myself do the best you can today, you don't have to do everything.
Here is what I did do:
I ate 3 meals, 2 of which were after work so not the best timing, but at least I remembered to eat.
I kept an eating log of everything I ate (including small details like vitamins and gum)
I didn't have any corn today, (we had sausage for dinner so I'm not sure about soy and there was a small amount of cheese in them, so I had a little bit of dairy today.)
I did go to bed last night by 10:30 and I did wake up at 7:00
I did brush my teeth this morning and I will brush my teeth tonight.
I will wash my face tonight
I watched a video today by D. Todd Christofferson about Daily bread (This counts as reading my scriptures.) You can probably find the video here. www.mormon.org
I am trying to pray throughout the day, I tend to forget and then pray before bed, which is better than nothing, so tonight I will pray, but I want to pray throughout the day.
I did an hour of Anatomy homework tonight (More like 2 hours)
I Brushed my hair today.
I did my daily chore today
I made a meal plan for tonight.
I am doing my daily journal.
How do you feel physically?
physically I feel good. My stomach feels much better and now I just am hoping that I have motivation to get up tomorrow and do my things. Especially exercise. I want to feel strong again. I want to feel toned and put together again. I'm trying not to get obsessive though, but old habits die hard. So as my mom says "One day at a time."
How do you feel mentally?
I feel good I think. My daily mantra is that good things don't happen overnight, well at least in this context anyway. SO I am trying to remember, Camille it is only day 3, you've got to let time do it's thing.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel good. I'm still excited and there are no signs of resentment towards the challenge itself, which is a good sign. So I'm ready to keep on trucking.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are: Okay let's get back to work and see the challenge do its thing. I had a bump in the road with the flu, but now I feel like I can get back to it.
Also, I was going through my checklist today and I realized I've been doing the daily stuff but not necessarily the weekly stuff. I think next week I should pick days that the weekly stuff are to be done on , because right now I look at the weekly things and think "Oh I have plenty of time in the week to do that." It is Wednesday night however. : /
I'm learning as I go, I guess. : )
Nighty night!
xoxo!
Today is day three!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Today actually went well. I think that what I had was the flu because I felt like I had a high fever last night and then this morning I just woke up feeling tired and slightly queasy. This to me meant that my fever broke and I am on the mend. I took a nap today so I could give my body some good rest, and I told myself do the best you can today, you don't have to do everything.
Here is what I did do:
I ate 3 meals, 2 of which were after work so not the best timing, but at least I remembered to eat.
I kept an eating log of everything I ate (including small details like vitamins and gum)
I didn't have any corn today, (we had sausage for dinner so I'm not sure about soy and there was a small amount of cheese in them, so I had a little bit of dairy today.)
I did go to bed last night by 10:30 and I did wake up at 7:00
I did brush my teeth this morning and I will brush my teeth tonight.
I will wash my face tonight
I watched a video today by D. Todd Christofferson about Daily bread (This counts as reading my scriptures.) You can probably find the video here. www.mormon.org
I am trying to pray throughout the day, I tend to forget and then pray before bed, which is better than nothing, so tonight I will pray, but I want to pray throughout the day.
I did an hour of Anatomy homework tonight (More like 2 hours)
I Brushed my hair today.
I did my daily chore today
I made a meal plan for tonight.
I am doing my daily journal.
How do you feel physically?
physically I feel good. My stomach feels much better and now I just am hoping that I have motivation to get up tomorrow and do my things. Especially exercise. I want to feel strong again. I want to feel toned and put together again. I'm trying not to get obsessive though, but old habits die hard. So as my mom says "One day at a time."
How do you feel mentally?
I feel good I think. My daily mantra is that good things don't happen overnight, well at least in this context anyway. SO I am trying to remember, Camille it is only day 3, you've got to let time do it's thing.
How do you feel emotionally?
Emotionally, I feel good. I'm still excited and there are no signs of resentment towards the challenge itself, which is a good sign. So I'm ready to keep on trucking.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are: Okay let's get back to work and see the challenge do its thing. I had a bump in the road with the flu, but now I feel like I can get back to it.
Also, I was going through my checklist today and I realized I've been doing the daily stuff but not necessarily the weekly stuff. I think next week I should pick days that the weekly stuff are to be done on , because right now I look at the weekly things and think "Oh I have plenty of time in the week to do that." It is Wednesday night however. : /
I'm learning as I go, I guess. : )
Nighty night!
xoxo!
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Day 2 of 60 Day Challenge
What day is today in the Challenge?
Today is day two!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Well today was interesting. I woke up this morning with what I think is the flu. Husband the wise old soul he is, said: hey your project isn't wasted, today is just a sick day for you. : ) So I let myself rest today with out feeling guilty or worried that I should be doing more.
What I did accomplish challenge wise was:
shower/bath
ate rice cakes and gluten free waffles. (no corn, no dairy, no high fructose corn syrup. : ) )
I did wake up at 7:00 (which is my wake up time goal.)
Last night I did go to bed at 10:30 (I didn't go to sleep at 10:30, but I was in bed so it counts.)
I will read my scriptures tonight
I will pray tonight
I did not attend counseling because I felt sick, but I scheduled for next week.
How do you feel physically?
Now, I just feel tired. The stomach roller coaster ride of fun I think has shut down for the evening. I had a massive headache earlier, but I think that was just because I was dehydrated.
How do you feel mentally?
Actually, not too bad. Allowing myself to be sick today was so liberating. I feel like I am in a constant tug of war with my body. Saying "you need rest, but not too much or you won't want to stop." or "yeah you are showing symptoms but I don't know when it is real or not so I'm not going to trust it." Being able to just exist today was nice, which is funny because when I have days like this because of fibro, anxiety or depression there is a lot of guilt and frustration with myself.
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel good. I actually feel more motivated to keep going with my challenge. I want to keep trying my "little things". Maybe it is because I didn't do all of them today, but I sort of miss them.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are, that I want to keep feeling peace about it, keep feeling motivated and not feel pressured to make it perfect. I want to let the challenge do its own thing, if that makes any sense. It's almost like I don't want to get in the way of myself. So since these are positive feelings I say "Onward!".
Bedtime!
Today is day two!
How did it go?(How many of the daily tasks did you accomplish today?If applicable, how many of the weekly tasks did you accomplish today?)
Well today was interesting. I woke up this morning with what I think is the flu. Husband the wise old soul he is, said: hey your project isn't wasted, today is just a sick day for you. : ) So I let myself rest today with out feeling guilty or worried that I should be doing more.
What I did accomplish challenge wise was:
shower/bath
ate rice cakes and gluten free waffles. (no corn, no dairy, no high fructose corn syrup. : ) )
I did wake up at 7:00 (which is my wake up time goal.)
Last night I did go to bed at 10:30 (I didn't go to sleep at 10:30, but I was in bed so it counts.)
I will read my scriptures tonight
I will pray tonight
I did not attend counseling because I felt sick, but I scheduled for next week.
How do you feel physically?
Now, I just feel tired. The stomach roller coaster ride of fun I think has shut down for the evening. I had a massive headache earlier, but I think that was just because I was dehydrated.
How do you feel mentally?
Actually, not too bad. Allowing myself to be sick today was so liberating. I feel like I am in a constant tug of war with my body. Saying "you need rest, but not too much or you won't want to stop." or "yeah you are showing symptoms but I don't know when it is real or not so I'm not going to trust it." Being able to just exist today was nice, which is funny because when I have days like this because of fibro, anxiety or depression there is a lot of guilt and frustration with myself.
How do you feel emotionally?
I feel good. I actually feel more motivated to keep going with my challenge. I want to keep trying my "little things". Maybe it is because I didn't do all of them today, but I sort of miss them.
What are your thoughts on the challenge?
My thoughts on the challenge are, that I want to keep feeling peace about it, keep feeling motivated and not feel pressured to make it perfect. I want to let the challenge do its own thing, if that makes any sense. It's almost like I don't want to get in the way of myself. So since these are positive feelings I say "Onward!".
Bedtime!
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